hey,baby
i'm sorry i have not been here in awhile but, it hurts really bad to know this is the only way to communicate with you i hate living so close to the people responsible for you not being here.i miss your big hug the most of all c.j nothing will ever be the same here without you life just don't mean anything anymore for me and sooo many other people at least i know you are safe in gods hands now and you will never be hurt again.c.j. sooner are later that punk will talk and when he does we'll all be there with a vengence to make sure he pays and the other ones who don't seem to care i know you know who they are and trust they will pay oneway are the other.. i love you my man.. forever your nanny

HEY CJ WE DID EVERYTHING TO GATHER I MISS U SO MUCH I MISS WHEN WE WHERE YOUNG RIDING OUR BIKES GOING FISHING I WISH THAT U WHERE HEAR I NO U NO THAT I DID NOT MUDER U MY MOM LOVED U LIKE HER OWN WE WHERE BEST FRINS SINES I WAS 5 I LOVE U SO MUCH UR MOM DOES NOT LIKE ME ANY MORE I STEEL LOVE HER  GOD KNOWS WHAT HAPPEN AND U NO WELL ILOVE U SO MUCH AND MISS U ALOT I WALK TO THE BUS STOP WHEN ITS RAINING AND SOME TIMES WIAT ON U BUT U NEVER COME I LOVE U  TALK TO U LATER

MY SON, MY LOVE, MY SOUL.

I LOVED YOU BEFORE I FIRST HELD YOU.

YOU DIDN’T DESERVE TO BE MURDERED.

YOU WOULD NEVER HAVE DONE THAT TO HIM.

I WOULD HAVE GIVEN MY LIFE IN PLACE OF

YOURS IF I COULD HAVE. BUT NOW I CAN

ONLY HOPE THAT THE ANGELS HELD YOU TIGHT

AS I WOULD HAVE HAD I BEEN THERE.

I WONDER IF THEY KISSED YOUR CHEEK AND

REMINDED YOU THAT I LOVE YOU SO

MUCH AND WOULD FOREVER GRIEVE FOR YOU.

AND DID THEY WHISPER IN YOUR EAR

THAT YOU WOULD NOT GO ALONE?

DID THEY KNOW THAT A PART OF ME WOULD

GO WITH YOU? EACH DAY THAT YOUR ARE

AWAY GETS HARDER TO BARE. MY WORLD

HAS BECOME A VERY DARK PLACE WITH LOTS

OF TALL WALLS. BUT I CAN TAKE ONE

MINUTE AT A TIME WITH YOU ALWAYS ON

MY MIND, IN MY HEART AND BY MY SIDE.

I LOOK SO FORWARD TO THE TIME I AM WITH

YOU AGAIN…. FOREVER. I AM SO SORRY THAT

I CAN’T LET YOU GO, BUT I JUST CAN’T.

PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR THAT.

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH,

MOMMA

Hey, C.J.  Well, Robert, Fallon, Daddy and Brenda all say hello.  And yes Robert and Fallon had a beautiful little baby girl.  She's beautiful because she looks like her Aunt Dana.  But anyway Christmas is almost here and we wish that yu ere here to spend it with us. We all miss you sooooo much.  With all of our love, Dana and the O'Ragan family.

Hey CJ, I just want to tell you that i know my dad didn't 
come to the services, but he thinks about you everyday. He 
said he just couldn't do it and he's sorry. He is always saying 
how you use to come over and see if Brenda was cooking or ask 
where was Robert?  He even says you would ask to if he needed 
anything done so that you could make some money.  And sometimes 
he would make you do stuff but then others times he would tell you 
no and give you some anyway, that's if he had it on him.  My dad loved 
you so much.  He use to say when your mom would be calling for you 
" Boy, you better go see, or your mom is going to beat ya 
butt." So this is for daddy, he loves ya CJ. 
  

	

Hey CJ.  You were like a little brother to me.  I love you sooooo much.  
I remember the first thing that you would see when you pulled on Beverly was 
your butt walking down the road.  And if you saw us in the yard or in the pool 
you would come over and jump right in.  No questions asked.  And when I watched
 you I use to beat your butt if you did something wrong. Which was almost
 everyday.  But you made me laugh and your parents were like parents to me 
and a big brother and sister.  Amber was like the sister I never had and ya'll 
were a gift from God.  I wish that everyone could have the joy of having neighbors 
like ya'll. I wish that I could bring you back but you are in a better place now.
I will always remember when you came over after Alana was born and you asked
to hold her and she was beening shy.  I thought that was cute and she would say,
" You bad!" That was all she really said at that time but it fit you just right.
Well, I love you with all my heart and I will never forget you.  You meant sooo
much to my family.